I was a world war fighter

Awesome Julian Beever..!!~

2010-09-19T17:10:00.000+08:00

I've spent my entire life trapped in a cage

2010-09-19T01:41:00.004+08:00

Rise Against - Give it All (Lyric)

Break through the undertow, your hands I can't seem to find,
Pollution burns my tongue, cough words I can't speak so I

Stop my struggling, then I float to the surface,
Fill my lungs with air, then let it out

I give it all, now there's a reason why I sing,
So give it all, and it's these reasons that belong to me

Rock bottoms where we live, and still we dig these trenches,
To bury ourselves in them, backs breaking under tension

For far too long these voices, muffled by distances,
It's time to come to our senses, up from the dirt

We give it all, now there's a reason why I sing,
So give it all, and it's these reasons that belong to me

Breathe (breathe), the air we give (give), the life we live (live), our pulses racing distances,
(breathe) so wet my tongue (give), break into song (live), through seas of competition

So please believe your eyes, a sacrifice,
Is not what we had in our minds,
I'm coming home tonight, home tonight

We give it all, now there's a reason why I sing,
So give it all, and it's these reasons that belong to me

Today I offer all myself to this I'm living for my dying wish,
I give it all, now there's a reason, there's a reason, to give it all

To a very dear friend

2010-09-18T01:59:00.005+08:00

Consequently we have no means and no rights to judge or evaluate ourselves, let alone others. So, we must deal justly and equally with all people and in all situation. However, i can judge myself through others opinions about me and there's this one girl that i really trust, for her honesty, intellectual brilliance and naturality. But sadly, she's gone forever and the memories we had shall be cherished forever.

She told me that, i'm a pretty decent guy and keeps on reminding that the word "hate" seems pretty strong and we should avoid it no matter how we dislike that particular subject. If we genuinely seek to know others, we must educate, allow ourselves to be educated and stop destructive hate. Consequently, It's unfair to expect others to be copies of ourselves, with identical hearts and minds. Unrealistic expectations of uniformity result in condemning diversity as a source of conflict, while overlooking its precious value as a source of enrichment.

Sometimes, i do judge other peoples through my sensitive observation. However, i never spit it out and keep it to myself. Trying to envy rather than constantly deny.

I'm a quiet person but usually that particular judgement void once i really know you. I need a staggering long hours to read a person.

I believe that all the things i've enjoyed and possess are gifts from God. A down to earth individual and treats others equally. Easily touched by others hard time and have strong sense of sympathy.

I hate the fact that some peoples loves to humiliate other and exploiting their privacy. Remember this my friends, never hate but educate. Better keep that in mind.

I possess scientific and mathematically constructive brains, in fact i graduated as engineer, obviously trying to tell you that i'm not an art kind of person. Thus, i have this some sort of difficulties to judge a picture from thousands perspective and extracting messages from musics. Anyhow, i keep on trying my possible best to blend into art and honestly, i love arts and the peoples behind it. They have this hypothetically intellectual brilliance and vision. Please bear in mind that my definition of artist is not a singer or an actor/actress.

Oh, that's a long description of myself and seriously, out of topic. LOL XD. The truth is that i love to write and i have a blog, writing as a total stranger and express my views plus sometimes i wrote about how's it goin with me today. Memories are so precious and it is a mean for me to see how i change as a human from years to years.

I am totally against any ideas of racism. If says that i have an opportunity to win a noble prize, Me only have one ambition, y'know. I only have one thing I really like to see happen. I like to see mankind live together - black, white, Chinese, muslims, christians, jews, everyone - that's all.

See you at the other end friends. Ciao..!!~~

Aidilfitri 2010

2010-09-14T02:15:00.009+08:00

Whaddup..!!~~

Wahaha..!!!

Finally, some of our raya snaps in ma blog here..

wahaha..!! I know.. I know... Its not obvious..

Pictures of me, ma bros, ma mom and my dad..

Wonderful & joyous raya by the way. XD

Full house..!!~

Sadly, i need to fly back to KL (just a 1 week leave) to continue working and earn some cash..

Damn, i wish i am still a student.

Purposely extend my own holiday despite the actual period given by the university.. LOL XD

Working? there's no wayyy you can do that kinda stuffs anymore. They pay you kayy..!!

ahh~ missing those moments.

There is no satisfaction than spending for your own loving family

2010-09-06T03:06:00.002+08:00

I will step on my hometown soil in just a few hours time and surprisely, i haven't pack any of my stuffs, not even a single men's brief. LOL XD. ahh, that particular stuffs has always been, and will always be the last thing to pack. Thinking of carrying one backpack plus a luggage considering that i need to pay for extra kilos if found that the luggage exceeds certain max. I don't have any weight-scale to check on my stuffs.. LOL.. Or should i take note on how Mr. Bean packed his stuffs?

Nah~~ I don't think so, it's like bringing nothing. haha.

Seriously, i have tons of stuffs to bring back home, i bought some Hari Raya present for my lovely siblings, 4 sets of Baju Melayu buttons, 5 sets of baju kurung ermm, i don't know how them girls called them, buttons for tudung? butang tudung with those decorative beads and pearl? for my mom. ahh, forget it, a Kek Lapis sarawak which i got from one of my vendor (funny because i myself will be going back to Kuching), cookies with gorgeous decorated box (i love this) from Petronas, a travel pillow from my employer, TL Offshore, greeting cards & AngPau envelopes from the mother company, SapuraCrest Petroleum, and bla bla bla.. Thanks for the stuffs, and i dedicate them to my family. Haha.. You'll be bored hearing all these crap. So, i tend to stop here.

This year's Ramadhan/Fasting month is my 1st experience of fasting in my working days. Totally different from the year before but it was a hell long lonely month for me. Yeah, i do get lots of luxurious & exquisite buka puasa treats from a number of vendors, hotels, restaurants and stuffs but seriously, none can replace home with parents and siblings. Anyway, thanks yah for the treats..!! Gonna mis em much much..!!~

Why do i get so excited of coming back home?

Firstly, i miss them like damn much..!!

Secondly, this time around we will organize a family reunions with barbeque and stuffs, snap pictures together plus take a portrait of our family since almost all of us has grown up HUGE..!! My two younger brothers are freakin tall and frankly speaking, i'm so jealous..!! LOL XD

Thirdly, we have a new extremely renovated house which i suppose has not been completed yet up till the moment i write this. Major renovation. Can't wait to see all those new furniture, tiles, carpets, lamps, home theather sets, fridge, washing machine, like all of them has been replaced.. Gosh, i'm getting too excited plus my room will be air-conditioned..!!

Fourth, I can't wait to feel the atmosphere of buka puasa at home and the feelings to help em out for this year's Aidilfitri celebration. My dad will be coming back all the way from Australasia and this should be one of a hell awesome celebration..!!

This is the start of my career and it has been 9 months up to date since i was being employed (thanks to SapuraCrest Petroleum Bhd for not making me a jobless graduates). For now, i only managed to buy a car for me and I can't wait to buy my own home, my own furnitures, assets and etc. Talking about marriage (since a numbers of my friend just got married and some of them just sticking me up asking when will i), i haven't save any since i'm not targetting any bond till i'm 30, so screw them marriage. haha.. Wait, it doesnt mean that i don't believe in marriage, its just that i want to have everything, a complete life before i can bring a wife to my own house and let her enjoy everything. LOL XD.

I will be a freakin handsome dude tomorrow at the airport.. LMFAO XD

haha, ok i really need to start packing things up. I'll continue later.

Hereafter

2010-09-05T02:28:00.010+08:00

I stumbled upon a video on Youtube.com which in my opinion is quite interesting and inspiring to share since it has injected a composition of realization drug into my sub-conscious brain to some extent.

Absolutely terrified by every bit of said video timeline for it shows what our Creator capable of in destroying every single atom that He created. Let us feed our mind with a knowledge that can step us up to a new pedigree.

Before that, let me translate the Qu'ran verse being used in this particular video.

Islam, Qu'ran, Surah Al-Waqiah, verse 1-6

1. When the Event (i.e. the Day of Resurrection) befalls.
2. And there can be no denying of its befalling.
3. It will bring low (some); (and others) it will exalt;
4. When the earth will be shaken with a terrible shake.
5. And the mountains will be powdered to dust.
6. So that they will become floating dust particles.

How terriying is that?

So, each of us, everyone i meant, every single living thing needs to believe in the hereafter. It is the D-day which we can actually face the Wrath and the Love from our God and Allah is merciful that we should repent at this very minute. I believe the knowledge on these is proclaimed in other scriptures too. So, let's proceed to watch this vid. Thanks to hollywood filming technology for giving us the view to this "surely a reality someday" event.

And to remind myself, those who are willing to spend their time here reading and for those who are certain of the hereafter, no one & things will be excluded from the D-day. Muslims, Christians, Jews, black, white, the richest man in the world, the president of the united states, the poorest of us all, saints and etcetera etcetera nor the highest mountain, the big blue whale living in the ocean, the ocean itself, those weird creatures living in the mariana trench 11,ooo ft deep into the ocean, the Sun, the furthest planet in our galaxy, even neighboring galaxies, none will be given the chance to escape the D-day.

Allah has no beginning and no end. To a Muslim, Allah is the Almighty, Creator and Sustainer of the universe, Who is similar to nothing and nothing is comparable to HIM.

We are equal in so many ways

2010-09-03T00:53:00.000+08:00

Dear brothers and sisters,

Before i start, i would like to press for one that, I truly believe in One God, Allah s.w.t as the ruler and creator of the universe and everything beneath it.

If we seek to genuinely know others, we must educate, allow ourselves to be educated and stop destructive hate. Even thou we came from different moms and dad, we are still human and that all human beings are descended from one pair of original ancestors, that is in my religion (Islam), they are called "Adam" and "Hawa" and widely known by other religions around the world as "Adam" and "Eve".

The equality of us all has been proclaimed in the scripture of all faiths. Yet discrimination of religion, race and caste are still widely occurs despite being proclaimed. The essential equality of us all is supported by the doctrine of monotheistic faiths that believe in God as the parent of all humanity instead of Atheist believer which believe in no God.

Thus, we should stop hating and begin an ice-breaking session with our counterpart in order for us to enjoy peace at its possible best without prejudice.

Passages below are genuinely extracted from scripture of each faith without re-phrasing any original sacred texts.

Islam, Prophet Muhammad (pbuh)

Allah has surely saved you from the slavishly ignorant practice of boasting about ancestry. A person is either a pious believer or a miserable sinner. All human beings are the children of Adam and Adam was made from dust."

Islam, Quran, Al-Hujurat [49:13]

O mankind! We created you from a single pair of a male and a female and made you into nations and tribes, that you might know each other [not that you might despise each other]. Verily the most honored among you in the sight of God is he who is the most righteous.

Judaism and Christianity. Bible, Malachi 2.10
Have we not all one father? Has not one God created us?

Hinduism. Bhagavad Gita 9.29
I look upon all creatures equally; none are less dear to me and none more dear.

Christianity. Bible, Romans 2.9-11
There will be tribulation and distress for every human being who does evil, the Jew first and also the Greek, but glory and honor and peace for every one who does good, the Jew first and also the Greek. For God shows no partiality.

Christianity. Bible, Galatians 3.28
There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free, there is neither male nor female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus

Judaism. Midrash, Seder Eliyyahu Rabbah 10
I call heaven and earth to witness: whether Jew or Gentile, whether man or woman, whether servant or freeman, they are all equal in this: that the Holy Spirit rests upon them in accordance with their deeds!

Jainism. Somadeva, Nitivakyamrita 1.1
The Law is that which leads to welfare and salvation. It forms conduct and character distinguished by the sense of equality among all beings.

Judaism. Mishnah, Sanhedrin 4.5
But a single man [Adam] was created for the sake of peace among mankind, that none should say to his fellow, "My father was greater than your father."

Islam
Whose deeds lower him, his pedigree cannot elevate.

Tenrikyo. Ofudesaki XIII.43-45
All the people of the whole world are equally brothers and sisters. There is no one who is an utter stranger. There is no one who has known the truth of this origin. It is the very cause of the regret of Tsukihi (God). The souls of all people are equal, whether they live on the high mountains or at the bottoms of the valleys.

Confucianism. Analects 17.2
Confucius said, "By nature men are pretty much alike; it is learning and practice that set them apart."

Jainism. Uttaradhyayana Sutra 25.3
By deeds, not by birth, is one a brahmin. By deeds one is a ksatriya, by deeds is one a vaishya, and by deeds is one a shudra.

Confucianism. Analects 15.38
Confucius said, "In education there are no class distinctions."

Buddhism. Dhammapada 393, 396
Not by matted hair, nor by family, nor by birth does one become a brahmin. But in whom there exist both truth and righteousness, pure is he, a brahmin is he. I do not call him a brahmin merely because he is born of a brahmin womb or sprung from a brahmin mother. Being with impediments, he should address others as "sir." But he who is free from impediments, free from clinging--him I call a brahmin.

Islam. Qur'an, Al-Imran [3:195]
And their Lord answers them, "I waste not the labor of any that labors among you, be you male or female--the one of you is as the other."

Islam. Qur'an 35.27-28
Have you not seen how that God sends down water from the sky, and therewith We bring forth with it fruits of diverse hues? And in the mountains are streaks white and red, of diverse hues, and pitch black. Men too, and beasts and cattle are of diverse colors. Even so only those of His servants who have understanding are truly dutiful to Allah."

Islam. Hadith of Ibn Majah
For the white to lord it over the black, the Arab over the non-Arab, the rich over the poor, the strong over the weak or men over women is out of place and wrong.

Unification Church. Sun Myung Moon, 1-1-87
What is the true color of love? White? Black? True love has no color. Anyone who is color-conscious cannot have true love at all. You have got to be color-blind

Kiddie, pity me [Trashing babies.!!~]

2010-09-01T03:00:00.002+08:00

I'm reverting the news on the shamefully tragic events happens in Shah Alam:

Children. They're like little fender benders that don't go away and poop a lot.

Luckily for me, i'm a safe driver and wear about thirty seat belts..

If you catch my drift.

Unfortunately not everyone "drives" safely.

In fact, I recently discovered that some people drive recklessly on purpose

with the hopes of having accident.

Something have to be clear here

FAQ:Did ya?

Awesome me: "I never play hiding the weenie".

May i introduce you with our main character

Meet Bimbo, the lady

and meet Jerk, the tramp

When the time they need to poop their baby out of their love tunnel

after 9 months driving recklessly along the subway,

they took a shortcut instead,

pooping them on the sunset boulevard,

umm, not logic. uh ah, pooping them on the street and left it there and dang..!!~

Hit the headlines.. If you catch my drift again.

I don't have my own bang toy,

It's not like uncle EJ trying to be delusional here.

But we can at least be civilized about it.

If you have friends that have decided to crank out a kid

and ruin their lives and those everyone in their immediate vicinity,

I encourage you to generate a list of guidelines for them to follow.

Here's a sampling of the 99 simple to follow guidelines. lawyered..!!

1. Don't ever play hiding the weenie

2. Patiently wait - let say after you walk down the aisle

3. 1 and 2

42. Get a condom

57. Try not to shoot the love tunnel

58. see 57 plus the tunnel entrance even

60. Master your timing

65. Perfectly adjust time and never get drawn by the fake uh ah

69. "69", a bit weird and it does sounds kinky LOL XD

75. All of the above

80. Never get involve in pre-marital intercourse

90. Remember that there's always a God watching you

91. see 90

92. see 90

99. see 90-98

Finally, Islam forbid pre-marital physical intercourse. and i believe all monotheistic faith forbid any pre-marriage sex.

In mah shopping cart jah

2010-08-31T07:35:00.017+08:00

Hey all..!!~~

WHADDUPP...*** :) !!!

I'm rocking back like i used to be

Freeze frame high five..!!

Argh

Why i kept on forgetting ma most favorable awesome quote

When i get sad, i stop being sad and be awesome instead..!! XD

Juanes la camisa!

Miss ma guitar

I kept her in the dungeon for almost 2 months

Zipping her there

Without even touching her

Romance her like i used to

Every single night. LOL XD

That sounds kinky

3 months back then

I've planned to save up some bucks

To buy a schecter synyster custom which definitely will cost me up to 4K, 5K even

I wonder why i'm forgetting that

That's not so raven..!!

Ah, i remember

Ma guitar have been borrowed by one of ma friend

For freaking 1 whole month

Since then, I've lost some interest

And totally forgetting on my desire

Gosh.. I need some awesome virus to hit me back

Gotta upgrade mah freakin nostalgic flicking point

Ah, sounds kinky again

I mean mah guitar lah~~

I better get me some Ibanez RG3520ZE

As ma nu affair

Thinkin of a schecter, but nahh~~

Better save some bucks

And get it when i got some extra bucks at mah disposal yah

Or maybe when i own ma own small but still, awesome studio room

Plus that extra seducing semi-lighting settings

Better be sexy yaww~

I went to a guitar heaven last night

Somewhere in the mid of KL

Tried this one sexy distortion pedal

I mean uhh, that sexy sounds distorted

I guess synyster gates used that

Jim Dunlop 95Q Crybaby Wah Wah

Jah wanna be a S.Y.N, jah gotta get some S.Y.N

Here, i show you some image for the things I've said earlier

Friggin gibberish writings eh.. ah..

I just play ma bitch where ma finger brought me.. LOL XD

I'm not really a technical nazi on guitar though.

This particular electronic pedal is those i've explained above. Seriously, i'm melting when i plug em in. Ok, surely gonna get this. In mah cart now.

Okayyy, i passed on this. Gosh, its price tag killing me. Uh, maybe someday when i'm a bucksanaire. Oops. However, it is and will always be my most admired born-to-be affair.

Here's the Ibanez which i planned to approach and bring her home. She sounds really metal ya-know. Plus her physical is soo freakin sexy, can't you see her neck?aww~ speechless.. so so

Bye~~ In search of his soul -end-

2010-08-30T03:59:00.000+08:00

Friends,

The sore truth about me is

I hate racism

No matter how i smile while you're telling me about it

I still don't like it

Can't you realize that i never said a word supporting your so-called intelligent statement?

Can't yah?

I need replenishment

I need to go home

For a week at least

I really miss my family

I really need them now

For the first time in my life

I sahur alone

And buka puasa alone sometimes

I am pathetically lonely

I miss my friends from campus

I really do

I really really do

For the past 3 days

I mean like every single day

I went to chill myself up, all alone

Definitely because that's my habit

Freely buying things without any friends to comment

Don't ya love it when jah are free like a bird. LOL

Absolutely love it

I went to kinokuniya to purchase some thoughtful properties

I went to all the boutique & shops

Jalan Masjid india not to be excluded too

I even go to home decor boutique

Almost purchase a RM800 comforter. Gosh..

Luckily, i changed my mind at the counter. LOL

This is the first time in my life

That i ever spent a thousand five hundred bucks on a single day

Of course not on a single receipt.

What a waste of money

I bought lots of stuffs

I really need replenishment

I need to go home

Spending time with my family

Hopefully my life will get better after raya

And to all my friends

I am truly sorry that i've rejected all invitation

That i'd ignore your invitation to chill

I will return to my original state after raya

I promise you guys

We'll gonna have a big time

Guetta surely smile

Like i said my fellow friends

Never leave a comment on my blog

Just inbox me directly

Cause the comment thread here are for stranger

Like i told yah.

And peace yaww..

I'll be off for a while.

Don't worry about the peace thingy

I have bought a tiny book dedicated for me to write

Every thoughts that crossed my mind

I'll try to write it genuinely

This is the start of the real thing

Wait for me

To come back from home

With a big smile on my face

We shall spread ideas for peace

Our tiny voice might be heard by someone

We don't know yet, we don't know the future

Here, i leave you a youtube link

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4pKP6-JFUEY

The song that i've been working on lately

Almost half-done

The lead part at the end of the song of course, takes time. LOL XD

Second Heartbeat yeh..!!

And hey,

I'm planning to buy a new electric guitar

Can you help me choose it

Which makes better electric guitar

Ibanez or Schecter?

Ibanez of course, metal sounding guitar

But oh dear,

Schecter is all about my favorite band, the A7X..

Sadly, Schecter Synyster is priced at RM4999.00.. duhhh. pass.

I've decided to take Ibanez RG3520ZE. ahh, sexy neck (see below).. end of. LOL

[INTRO] A blog of a guy who loses his pride

2010-08-30T01:39:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, good peoples are forced by the capitalist to be bad peoples. I'm a human, you're a human. We have faith in God/Believe, our physical is much more or less the same, we cried, we love, we have brains, we win and we failed. The only difference between me and you is thoughts. So why do we have to make a big fuss out of it? It doesn't make any sense isn't it? Because the truth my dear friends, the chaotic events happens today are pointing at one reason, It was and always be, all about money and conquering resources. We live a hard life, but them? You should think about it my dear brothers and sisters all over the world. Why can't we live in harmony and peace by ignoring the agendas brought through thousand of medium, just to show you the false fact and hating the true facts.

War is not a game, but a lot of wars have one thing in common with video games - They are pointless.

Cracking your child's brain

2010-08-29T10:00:00.002+08:00

Don't worry a thing, cause everything's gonna be alright. Yeah, everything's gonna be alright.

Parents of the world

Parents of yesterday

Parents of today

And Parents of tomorrow

Please listen to what i'm gonna say

Free speech carries with it a freedom to listen

A child is not a property nor a gift from God Al-mighty, it is the trustworthy He gave yah

Please tell them children the truth

Poisoning them never will be an exhibit A

Them human grows

d' ya Know that

Ya-all gonna miss them when they starts to think

-EJ-

Princess Diana brainwashed me

2010-08-28T04:54:00.000+08:00

I should cut the mustard when it knocks. knock knock and knock.

Completing a crosswords was never been easy

I did myself a favor

like coochy coochy coo

pretending that i was a barbarian fighting mobs

Conjuring tricks with bone

and all i did was

conspicuous consumption.

I'm a bear of very little brain

as of winnie the pooh describing itself

You think of things

You find sometimes that a thing

which seemed very thingish inside you

is quite different when it gets out into the open

and has other people looking at it

Beam me up scotty..!!

We shall never surrender

and we shall think

on a barcelona chair

drinking arab's barbican

Trash them hatred

deep inside

as deep as Mariana trench

I was lieke

The bold prima donna

hating chavette

working class youth with a fondness

for fashionable clothes and ostentatious jewellery

They all go Bling Bling all the way

Non-respectable working class

Jasmine, Tiffany or Wayne

Driving a souped-up Vauxhall Nova

Enjoying bloody mary cocktail

Wearing prison white trainers

and FCUK zip-up tops

Essex girl and the beshellsuited scouser

All rolled into one great Burberry-patterned beast

And here comes the BIG BUTT

Nope, i mean but

Charm offense struck me

fairy at the bottom of the garden

She did it

facade

Realizing that for all this while

I'm torturing myself

beating myself up

and losing a dream

Fair crack of the whip

End of the day,

Hasta La Vista my belle of the ball

Ma belle, Exhibit A

Forever in my soul

Have a good time

Enjoy yourself inhibitedly

The ball here is a dance

I'm much happier than i was

Shielding my hatred

Like a powerful swordsman

In praise of doubt

Journey on an exciting whirlwind tour

Of the history of modernity

Religions

Rise of psychology

Marxism

And the intellectual challenge of relativism

The failure of totalitarianism

fundamentalism as a modern invention

and the startling conclusion explaining why truth

even religious truth

needs doubt to survive and thrive

Attaboy..!!

-EJ-

Lacking but never stop seeking

2010-08-27T05:09:00.000+08:00

The truth behind my humanoid self is that

Monalisa was my paint

but Da Vinci's stole away

I challenge Isaac Newton who is my equal,

I faced Albert Einstein a science fiction,

I'm denying Shakespeare

and i learned the secrets of the great

to finally fail at arts and to finally failing myself

to extract the slightest good things from evil stuffs

and sees only one perspective at a time.

Now, I'm having a war with my own hatred

That is of Adolf Hitler

I'm having a hard time with the stubborness

That is of Winston Churchill

Now,

I'm performing an experiment

In my own scientific laboratory

That is of my brain

Blending Shakespeare, Da Vinci, Einstein, Newton, Hitler and Churchill

Altogether, in one secret recipe

It might consume a staggering long hours

Without doubt, it would yield abundance of thumbs up

All this mediocre

All this catastrophe

All this constant duplicity

Exhausted

d[O_O]b

We are not the final article

2010-08-26T03:52:00.000+08:00

This worthy day,

This late hour,

This very minute,

This final seconds.

Finally,

I have stood myself

After a long strenuous journey

Keeping myself away from the malice

And focus to overweening ambition

Thy not a fantasy

nor innocent of literary merit

nor Young recruit destitute of insights

I am no non-existence

Chimeras are non-existent

You my friend

Yes, you with exuberent personality

Can have anything you want

If you want it desperately enough

Once

I dared to dream

It was a BIG dream

It was an old dream

It was an intimidating dream

A Scary dream,

Risky Even

It was a cherished dream

with much promise

which kept me going

even in the darkest day

And one day,

Not so very long ago

I decided it was time to make the dream a reality

And become the breeder that i felt i was destined to be

I did it

Somehow, i really did it and found THE horse

Maar Bilaah, you're wonderful, Its true.

Machi's personality was child alike

She was friendly

Very inquisitive and curious about people

Underscoring the breed's history of intimate closeness with man

Wanted to know who i was

As we haltered

I snapped the lead chain

Started our walk to an outside ring.

To finally failing completely

It took me a long time

And much painful boomeranging of my expectations

To achieve a realization everyone else appears to have born with

That i am nobody but myself.

Wherever you go,

Go with all your heart.

Keep wishing

Keep hoping

Keep dreaming

Life is good :)

-EJ-

-This is computer generated trumpet, no signature required-

Poor Thing

2010-08-25T01:42:00.001+08:00

Purpose: Street Journalism

Date/Time: 7th August 2010 @ 1800hrs

Venue: Bintang Walk, Kuala Lumpur

Event: F&N Concert

Title: Where's her parent?

What did you get out of this particular shot? Capturing images saves lots of words.

This is a shot taken by one of my friend during our outings in KL to search for some cool pictures and i was absolutely wowed by this portrait. We can feel the expression there, the emotions, all the negativity and positivity just by staring at this image here.

Missing weekends

2010-08-24T02:28:00.000+08:00

They say past is past. We need to move on to see the future. But how can we move on when our past is the only thing we ever wanted in the future?

Why can't i just forget the past..?!?!

Re-unite at last

2010-08-23T04:14:00.000+08:00

It has been a year

Since i touched you last

Don't cry baby

Cause i'm back here to write on you

Oh blogger

Now i realize

You are such an important medium

For me to know myself and be myself instead of copying others

Dear blogger,

I have been a very bad person

Since i deleted you from my life

I lost completely

My english became sucks day by day

My knowledge were squeeze to the lowest limit

I forgot about the things i've learnt

I have denied all the things that i have wrote on you before

And i've completely misjudge everything since then

Now, i realize of what important you are to me.

I'm back as a blogger

Because,

This is the only ways to keep me motivated

And avoiding myself to become such a workaholic person

And forget about the things that matters to me

The world and the afterlife

I will treat you as my friend from now on

Without you, i am a lazy person

I lack motivation to seek for knowledge

and lack at almost everything

My schedule was completely messed up

Totally focussed on my career

Never give them knowledge a chance to penetrate my brain

I'm denying them all these while

And i've regretted every precious words and knowledge i left on you before.

Now its gone, forever.

Somehow, i will write a new chapter

of my old version

altogether with the new version of me.

Thanks to you.

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